There has been a lot of crazy shit going on with me these past couple of months. All sorts of crazy feelings are going in and out of my system. I am having, confusion, sadness, fear, regret, anger, doubt, hope, a sudden burst of happiness, a sudden crash caused by rejection… All that stuff and more. And I’m having them continuously as you read this blog.
This is mainly because of a certain “love” problem that you might have noticed if you have been keeping up with The Kickflip. And if you have seen me on Facebook, this problem obviously has been fucking me up really bad for the past 3 months (check my wall).
Eeeeeeeeveryone has noticed. Even my mom… and especially my dog.
Let me put it in a figurative manner. My heart is getting beaten up pretty badly. When I fall down, I fall down hard and deep. There is one major, major problem with what’s going to happen next… I get back up and start walking to make things happen. Imagine that happening 100 times and more after as you read along. How fucked up is that, huh?
The thing is I’m no quitter. I’m a lover AND a fighter.
But I’m not gonna lie. I may not give up that easily but there have been instances when I thought of giving up on “us”. This is the craziest idea/solution I have thought off.
I look for a secret government laboratory and ask that they put me to a cryogenic sleep which will then preserve my body for several number of years without festering. After that process, they will wake me up after 80 years when everyone I’ve ever known and loved are dead or just really old. Then I could start my life from scratch and live after everybody else has.
Then I save the world from evil with anger from the past as my fuel!
Feeling Captain American ba?